Financial future and the forced death of any hopes lingering. Not of our M per se but for somekind of happy ending, something that will make all of this have a meaning.
I got mad last night. My blood pressure must have been high and my heart was beating too fast. I had to MAKE myself calm down...
I want to hurt him sooo bad for the mess he made out of our life. Out of the lives of the 4 of us... K
