More positive Rabbit today I think, although Babycakes is gonna be stuffed if she keeps up this new game of lets wake mummy up by poking her in the face with the bucket cos she is bored and wants scritchies lol!
So I was awake bright and early this morning and took S a cuppa which was received well, he smiled and said you know the way to my heart mum, I always used to get up and wake him with a cuppa tea before he went to school, maybe its something I should do more often if it keeps him sweet!
Shall spend some time pampering and riding madam today, she has been rather neglected in all this upheaval, thank goodness she is on part livery so is well loved and cared for by yard owner and staff, although she seems to be pleased to see mummy these days a far cry from the mare who was so grumpy and unloved when I bought her several years ago. It much nicer to be greated by a wuffle than her teeth lol!
Bought a fab little jumper & skirt yesterday, black ribbed jumper and the little skirt is in a check but its a diamond shape, 21" in length sexy/sassy but not mutton dressed up as lamb, think it will look smart for the funeral with knee length black boots and maybe a colourful scarf/jewellry to jazz it up.
I have some thoughts on the funeral that I would really like to ask H if we can go as husband and wife and would he mind if I wore my wedding ring, but this time its not out of embarrassment more out of respect for dear friend, she didnt know we have separated and would have been devasted, you see we were the couple that would be in love for ever like her and her beloved, a real teenage sweetheart story so to speak. Also as a great deal of the people there will be old friends (and of course my parents and possibly my sister who do know) and a right old nosy bunch I really dont want to have her day spoilt by tittle tattle about us splitting up.. Just not sure how to put this to H and as funeral isnt till the 14th I have time to ponder on this one..
I do think your right Nell its just a bit too soon for "official dating" although I think thats how H is seeing it, he still has that air of "cut and run" think I need to let him do the phoning, and be sexy/sassy rabbit when he does, maybe the odd cheeky/sexy txt from me for encouragement, and take it SLOW.. I still have a month before he has to give notice, so will just have to work my socks off in that time..
I have my first tap dancing class tonight havent done any since S was fiveish, really looking forward to it and maybe that along with getting on madam again will help shift these last ten pounds or so! Well need to get on will pop past everyone later
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