Hi All, Things are going well. My H and I had our first MC session and a lot of stuff came out about the A. It was very hard to hear and put me in a funk yesterday and today for a bit. My H has been very attentive, open, accepting of anything I want of him to do or change. He has shown a lot how very sorry he is for the pain and BS he put me through. He has made a lot of changes, from his cell number, cancelled his email address, cancelled facebook, let me delete her number out of his phone. Interesting thing, the OW called me today!!! She made 3 calls and hung up and then called again and made up a story that she was a worker at the Marriott Hotel and needed some information from my H and his wife (used her name) for their upcoming stay and if he would please call back. I brought this up to my H because I am thinking there is a fatal attraction here, but he said no but he was not going to reach out to her just to ignore and let it die out. He offered to change the home phone if I wanted to. Not sure about that, I will wait and see if these phone calls persist, but he feels if she is not met with any response, she will go away.
I am really thinking we are headed in a great direction. We have had so many very honest conversations every day this week, more than I think we every have. We discovered that is one problem that we have had in our whole marriage is that we never got real and talked about everything and feelings, good or bad. We have done that everyday for the past week, with some of the conversations being very hard and painful, but we got through them and ended on a positive note and we had some really great conversations about the good things in our marriage.
Every so often I get hung up with the physical images in my mind and it makes me sick and my skin crawl. I mourn the fact that there will never be that sanctity in our marriage ever again, that the sacredness of that act of making love is tarnished and will be scarred forever, but I have talked with some friends that have been through the same thing that say it gets better.
I just can't thank everyone who gave me support and kept my head in the game enough. I hope I can be there for others the way Sandi and Puppy have been there for me. Thank you.
Is it too soon to say another divorce has been busted??? I think it has.
