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[awest1217]

So a strange turn of events. I had conferences tonight and when I left I had a text from H. It read,
H - I hope you haven't spent any money on an attorney, and that you can cancel your appointment without a penalty.

Me - Why?

H - I've just been doing some thinking the past few days about what is important to me.

Me - Ok and what have you decided?

H - that you and S are important

Me - I'm glad to hear that so what do you want to do from here?

H - I don't know yet, but I know u and S are a priority to me

Me - Well for right now I am going to keep the appointment because although I am ecstatic to hear you say that, it is still just words. I need some type of action. You did make me happy to hear we are a priority

H - Will it make you happy to know that I'll probably be home soon

Me - Yeah very! I almost cried at an assembly today because it was about being a positive change and talked about if you had 1 hour to live who would you call to say i love you. Mine is you

H - Mine would be you too

Me - Really?!?!? thanks

Although this has given me some hope, I know that it is just words so I can't get too happy. He could just be saying it to call off the lawyer, however H might have finally understood what is happening and me just calling a lawyer was enough. Who knows?

I am still at peace about going on with seeing L unless something major happens (H comes home), otherwise I will still go and at least know my options.

I have had two great nights since calling L. It is just like a load has been lifted, although it scares me and makes me sad, I am at peace.