Thanks Buttercup. I feel good today, I am probably just avoiding the reality of my situation, but I'll enjoy it while I can. I am back home for the week with my kids as my wife is at the old house. I thank God she is being fair when it comes to the divorce and kids. 50/50 on everything.
While we haven't filed, we go to meet a mediation attorney on Monday and that is where we start the process. It will be sad, but I still have 4 days to continue to be kind and make progress, even after we file, I have 4 months to work on DB before it is final.
I have been seeing a counselor and it has helped so much. I have told so many people about my abusive father in the last few weeks and until about 2 weeks ago not a soul on this planet knew about it.
I have a lot of anger toward my dad, and I need to forgive him. Then, I need to work on forgiving myself Only then will it be possible for my wife to forgive me, at least in my mind.
I remain realistic about my situation, but also optimistic about the power I could have in shaping its final outcome.
Like I said, today was a good day. Tomorrow I could be all doom and gloom; but I know I have the choice each day...sometimes I win and sometimes I lose.
Thanks for all the kind words. Kids are in bed and it is time for a movie.
