So I'm feeling a bit defeated tonight. Decoy posted some information that was helpful, and H responded to it well, and says he's going to go to the doctor appointment that he asked me to make. I can't help but feel that there is more going on in our relationship that may be hindering efforts to repair. I'm beginning to wonder if H is having a MLC and neither of us have realized. I've no doubt made mistakes in our marriage, but am really trying to be what I need to be for him, without loosing myself. I've stood by him through his different justifications for the lack of sex, and tried to help him figure it out, but its not just the sex, its the lack of closeness and togetherness that we used to have. He won't even sleep in the bed. I feel like I'm talking to a brick wall sometimes. In the past we've tried several remedies, and he says he agrees that we should try, but then he never followes through with anything until I mention it again. Makes me feel like I'm the only one trying to fix whatever the hell is going on. I don't want to add to our problems by resonding or reacting in a manner that will only make matters worst, but I feel like everything that has been done has been done by my following through. I don't want to be that kind of wife. I don't want to run his life, I don't want to hold his hand and pull him through everything, I want to stand beside him and walk through it together, side-by-side. I feel like I'm trying to pull him through this, and as soon as I turn around he sits down and waits for me to turn around again. I know he loves me, but why doesn't he want to fix this, why can't he see that our marriage is falling apart? I don't know which way to respond...meaning that if its a medical thing then I think I should support him in his journey, but if its a MIL then shouldn't I be pursing the GAL theory? Confused and lonely...what do I do?
