Ups and Downs

[Energizer Bunny]

I am emotional tonight. I meant to say that I haven't tried to talk her out of buying because when I have tried to reason with her on other stuff it has made her more determined to do the opposite of what I have wanted.

Maybe I handled it all wrong tonight. I'm still trying to be the good guy. I still love her. I feel bad for her but I also feel very mistreated and get so frustrated.

I'm typing on my phone so I won't get into too many details. She still talks about feeling so guilty and her reasons for this change. Now she says that she says she's felt the 'in love' feeling for me at points this week, but can't explain why she feels she needs to go. She says that she sees what she's putting me through and doesn't deserve my understanding attitude.

I told her that I can accept that she feels she has to leave, but I don't have to like it. I don't have to like it or sit and go over the details with her.