Bewildered

[KiwiMan]

Well..... no good news as usual.

Went to the lawyers, and not much was said that we both didn't already know.

I ended up talking to her in the car on the way home... and she said that her head is still messed up, but that she is sure she has made the right decision as far as our relationship goes.

I lost my temper and called her "heartless" and said "Well, you true colors are showing now".

I know I shouldn't have said anything about the R, but my self control is quite bad at the moment.

What caused the friction is that I asked why she wasn't willing to try something for my sake... as she had not had any help making the decision and said she had been trying the last year to feel the love me me.

Anyways.. back to no contact with her. All of this weekend and next week our kids are going to my parents house... so both of us will be without kids.

This will be my first chance to go for a week without contacting her. I guess its the first real opportunity to ignore her.

I know that its only been 3 weeks... and thats probably why she is still closed to any type of R talk.

God... I thought I was detached a bit more last night after I called her those names... but today I still feel like I want her back... whats wrong with me!

Oh well..