I appreciate the advice. Thanks for telling it like it is. I have given her plenty of space over the past few months. Also, I am doing everything possible to be the best father for my child.
This is the reason why I joined. I want to hear both sides of the argument. I know I wasn't the best person, but I know I am no where near being the worst. That's why I am improving myself for the better. It's frustrating knowing that she is not around to see the improvements I made over the past 5-6 months.
I wasn't proud of the ways in which I would withdrawal from her and my son at times. I would just keep to myself and mind my own business. I guess I came off as someone who did not care. But, at times, I felt like I was always held to a different standard. I communicated my feelings to her. She was not good at that all. I felt like I had to pry her complaints out of her mouth. Maybe, she was just used to holding in all of her emotions.
The thing that hurts is that she always told me I was the best thing that happened to her. She always wondered why I always took care of her and valued her opinions. That's the frustrating part. From everything being wonderful to the bomb.
I am trying make the proper changes. Not only for myself, but for my son. I look forward to being with him everyday. I just wish that I could take him everywhere I go. I know he wants to be with me also.
As for the OM, i don't think about it at all. I was just surprised that she decided to leave us for him. Not exactly what I had pictured, but I guess he makes her "happy".
