I keep expecting some emotion, but it's not coming. I guess I've already gone through it.
IMO, you've got it blocked. At some point it will hit you, something will trigger the flood. While you might think it's good not to be feeling anything I remember the words of a wise C long ago - you can't feel the happy if you shut down to block the sad.
Maybe someone has asked you this, but is there anything about your W that you miss since you are apart? Is your life better and you have more peace now?
VH, I am sorry that your M is ending. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying you should or shouldn't stay M. Life rages on.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
