Who knows Rabbit but it's eating me up. Last week I thought that he wasn't at work as he had't answered an email but a few hours later, a response. I know that it's just so easy to let your brain run away with you but I know him and with the date having been set down a few weeks back, it all becomes clear now. It also makes me realise that the saying of "believe half of what you see and none of what you hear" is true. He is cheating and he did lie - he could have told me that he was going away and he chose not to. Then he tells me that I am the liar for not declaring my earnings to him?!! Helloooooo.
If he is interstate, I hope that the true colours come out and he has lots of time left there to consider what's going on.
Yes, this particular IC exercise has helped a little, just as I was giving up on it all.
Have posted on your thread re your faux pas!
Woke up this morning and felt that there was not much purpose to the day. I don't know what I am getting up and carrying on for any more. I work hard toward the weekend and then, when it arrives, I realise how I'm better off in work. There's nothing to give me purpose at the moment, excepting for the furries. I'm fed up of moaning and whinging and looking in the mirror to an unhappy soul. I have been on my own for four lonely months now and I am starting to bleed out of all that I have in me. I don't feel like I have many reserves left and I don't even get some of the little crumbs that H used to throw at me when this all first kicked off.
I don't know what to do next. I don't think nc is the way but I'm so petrified of doing anything else until at least 6 October. I know it doesn't sound like it's long away but it may as well be years ahead the way that I currently feel.
WAH 43; W 47 M 16; T 17 Cats 15 & 6 Bomb 27/05/09 ow 28/06/09
"It is only on the darkest night that we see the stars"
