Forgive AND forget?

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Look who's here while I've been off! how nice to see you all!

More patience? Probably.

H and I were both gone in different directions this past weekend. He actually came to give me a hug and wish me a Happy Anniversary before we left.

Now, did you enjoy that bite to eat? Did you have a nice conversation?

Actually, YES. There used to be a time that if we sat at the same table it was total silence filled with tension. Now we talk again, although some subjects will shut him down fast.

Have you been acting as if? Is there a wall of unspoken stuff between ya'll? As much as you can predict his actions, rejection, ets.. I bet he can predict yours too. What would happen if you arrived at a meeting and went to sit by him acting like it's no big deal? What if you started seeking him out as your husband? Do you think he'd revert back to his former rejections and withdraw?

There's a boatload of questions in there! yes and no to some of each! Act as if - mostly. Sometimes that wall needs to be breached and I try to choose the right words. Basically it still boils down to there are times that he is more receptive to me treating him like a H or me acting like his W but there are times that if I try to act TOO 'normal' he throws up that wall. Yes, I bet he can predict me too better than I can! I don't feel like I'm on thin ice or eggshells but I do feel like I have to get the timing real right to get a good response.

Piglet, we've had a nearly perfect fall, warm and sunny, but this week turned cold and I had frost on the windshield this morning! I didn't know you moved to a bigger house! good thing with a grandbaby on the way! congrats! Did J recover from his back problems? Is your life as good as it gets yet?

I had a bad show last weekend. Actually my mare showed very well and we had a lot of good compliments but the judge didn't like us! Still chasing points to get that 'title' on my mare.

H must finally be tired of staying gone late every evening. He's been home almost before dark lately! Lucky for me I was making squash in the oven and he likes that sort of thing and he was hungry too. Kaching, points for me! I really do think I have to step up in areas where I've been lacking as I've only had to think about me me me for so long while H has been fogged in.

I also need to keep the balances in check. Every positive still has one or more negatives to make the teeter totter uneven.