K4D Rising #4

[K4D]

JonF,

I think you may have taken what I was saying the wrong way. I wasn't saying anything about what you should or shouldn't do. I was just saying here is one of the reasons that I personally am not doing it for myself. Thats all.

Am I cramming God into what I want? I feel that I certainly have done that at times. But I also feel that he tells us to come to him for help in situations that seem impossible. Ok, here come the 2x4s for this I am sure. Kevin, you haven't done everything you could so how can you say it seems impossible? Can't argue there. I have inched along on this roller coaster.

I think that you have made a decision to D your W, that is between you, God and your W. If you are at peace with it, then you are at peace with it.

I can't imagine my kids having to live in an apartment with OM and his kids. Ugg, that would drive me crazy. So I can only imagine how you felt about all of that.

I am not saying that I am greater than anyone else for my stand either. Lord knows you were at it 3 times as long as I have been.

Its not that I pick and choose bible verses for what I want. I have gone through and through and talked with others regarding what it says about marriage to the point of crazyness. I wanted to make sure I left no exemption, stone unchecked or unturned. I think I have possibly read every single scripture in the bible both old and new testament regarding marriage and D more times than I can count. I have talked with different religious leaders about it multiple times. Does that make me better than anyone else or know more than anyone else, nope. Just means that I feel I have covered the grounds needed to stand for this M come hell or high water. Thats all.

I am definitely not ignoring the advice of 25 and others. Infact my kids C is working out something where we can have an hour and a half sessions that include 30 minutes for me, 30 minutes for D11 and 30 minutes for D7 every other week and for only $20 more per session.

My biggest challenge is finding a passion and forgetting my circumstances.

Kevin