Have you looked into art classes? They have some in our town, painting, drawing, etc, sculpting, photography, and they're very fun from the women I've talked to that go. That's on my bucket list of like 20 things I'd like to do at some point. Oh, cooking classes also, but you sound like you're already a good cook. I'd also like to join a gym too, not creative, but just help me exercise regularly.
You know, I think your letter was beautiful, so amazingly well-written. You know I think your X is the broken one, and you're an amazingly strong and loving person. I know how hard it is to have special-needs kids, and I know you are amazingly special and how hard that is.
I tried the lean cuisine thing too a couple weeks back. I bought some real healthy ones, but after I ate them (like 200 calories) I swear I was starving! Like eating celery or something!!!