K4D Rising #4

[K4D]

I don't have any plans for Christmas. I will just work through it and hope it passes quickly. I might be getting together with another family for Thanksgiving. W has the girls for halloween, thanksgiving and Christmas. I have discussed it with her yet. I don't have any family in the DFW metroplex and I won't have time to travel anywhere since I don't get paid for missing time from my job since I am still a contractor.

I see your point about scripture.

It did cross my mind about not being invited, but I am so used to it now I guess I just accept it as normal.

My W did leave town this past weekend for my birthday weekend. Believe me, that bothered me. But I shouldn't have let it bother me.

I don't want to know what she was doing out of town or who she might have been with during my birthday. All I know is that she said she had the best weekend she has had in a long time. I can only imagine.

I guess I shouldn't have commented on SIL. I think I just thought it was interesting that W was actually seeking my opinion on something. It is a rare case when that happens anymore.

No, I don't like living like this. I try to hang on to prayer and trusting in God to restore us with time.

It has been a year. I have learned a lot. I don't do the things I used to do towards her. There is no R talk. I don't pursue her. I admit it is lonely being at the apartment by myself. I don't enjoy it. So I try to do things outside the apartment. Inevidently I have ended up spending money I shouldn't have because of it, so I have to cut that out.

Kevin