Ups and Downs

[Energizer Bunny]

I made sure I didn't go straight home after work yesterday. I just know I would have been clingy and needy. I tried to time my arrival home just in time to see S off to bed.

I had a conversation with a friend of mine along the lines of "I could go completely dark and W would never pursue me." Then wouldn't you know it...she called me when I was on my way home.
Ironic.

Of course, she had a reason to call. She wanted me to pick up something from the store...then she kept me on the phone for another 20-30 minutes. It was nice. I could tell she WANTED to talk to me.

That's different.

When I got home, I went through the bed time routine with S and noticed W standing the door watching with a little smile.

I offered no hugs, etc. I was just friendly and upbeat. I asked about her day and went to "my" room to watch TV. No pursuing by either of us. Not much said, good or bad. Just comfortable really. She slept in "her" room again.

S was in "her" room (I wish I could bulldoze just that part of my house) this morning. He goes in there after he wakes up most mornings. I went in there to give S a hug before I left. I gave W a hug too from behind. I left the room and she called me back for another hug so she could hug me back.

There was as odd exchange about the dishes in the dishwasher before I walked out the door, but otherwise it seems positive.

I'm still not talking about her moving, asking about her search for a new house etc.