I am trying to fake it and its tough. I feel like I am doing everything alone..my home, my kids, my little money, friends, etc. Some days it just gets to me.

I went to my usual bible study group. It was the first meeting of the new semester. They decided to do it on "communication in marriage". I had no idea. Out of the maybe 20 women there I was the only single one. I was fighting tears the entire 2 hours and I wanted to run fast. I sent the leader a nice email after saying I wasn't going to participate and would next semester. She tried to rephrase things once in awhile by saying 'oh you can apply this to anyone in your life' but it really wasn't working.

Today is another new day.


Me: 46 FWS: 36
Married and Divorced 4/07, Pregnant 7/07,False R 7/07
Baby Girl born 3/08
Kicked him out because OW: 7/08
5/10 He realized what he had and lost.
Moved home! REMARRIED 3/14/11!!