Not Me...Ever part 2

[Serenity13]

Thank you Tristan and Puppy for coming with the 2x4's

I realized yesterday after I typed that letter and posted it here, that I was finally detached - It hit me like a ton of bricks...I was able to look at his FB as well as the cell phone (he is talking to the exgf from high school more and more lately instead of the middle school exgf he left us for) and I was ok...There were no tears or worrying...I was GOOD people...It only took me 8 months to get here lol

Hi Tomato -

I leave on Halloween for 4 nights/5 days and I am a bit anxious but also excited...

I know it is weird but I have an aversion to being alone in places...

At home it is fine but no restaurants or movie theaters...

At the grocery store I could never stand in a line with someone behind me - If I had 1 or 2 items and you came up behind me with a buggy full, I would let you go ahead of me just so I didn't have you behind me...It makes my skin crawl for some reason.

My psych says I am to aware of everything going on around me so part of my 180's is to change that, so I have been going to the grocery store (and letting someone stay behind me) or mall by myself for little blocks of time...

Haven't brought myself to eat alone or go to the movies yet but I am working on it...

Thank you for your prayers for my trip