Julia, I guess your ct@ppy feeling is to be expected...this is a HUGE decision and one that you have given such considered and deliberate contemplation. It's sad simply because this is not the life you envisaged for yourself.
Allow yourself to feel the pain of this decision but remind yourself that you are the most beautiful and amazing person whose personal demeanour and integrity shines so brightly that it will radiate out to all those you meet. Be kind and patient with you; for that's exactly what you deserve!
I feel sure a whole new life is emerging for you and you need to be ready for it!
The weather is simply superb at the moment-sunny dats and cool evenings. It's been just perfect for our beach walks and for those leisurely coffees which go down perfectly as we sit lazily in the beachside cafes!
I've never been to London but I've watched lots of episodes of shows like The Bill so I have some idea of the weather!
The best thing today with H was that he knows I didn't deliberately call him, just accidentally dialled and then disconnected! I plan on giving him time to initiate and that's quite easy at present cos I am feeling happy and dare I say it, detached.
