It's too hard sometimes

[TooLateForMe]

Talked to W for a long time about R. It wasn't intentional, she led it in that direction. I agreed with most of what she said. She doesn't buy that I've changed overnight. Good for her! But the upshot is she's exhausted with trying to make things work. I have a shot. I see it clearly. I have been reacting, making the mistake of expecting an immediate solution.

I know what to do. STAY IN HER LIFE! Make real and lasting changes. Show, don't tell (the writer in me should know this by now).

She "let" me compliment her, tell her I think she's sexy and appreciated it! That's HUGE! It won't win her back tomorrow but if I don't stop reacting to everything like its the end of the world she won't pay any attention to what I'm doing.

She isn't ready to compromise, though. But at some point I want to ask her to keep doing what she's doing but keep an open mind about my changes. I don't know when this could be asked but it would be an intermediary step to MC.

In the mean time I have to really change, really do my homework, GAL. No excuses. She is worth it.