Sounds like you have being doing some deep and meaningful thinking, Buttercup.
I applaud your position and think it enviable. I wish that I could get to the point at which you are at.
Like you, I am fed up of pussyfooting around H and I feel that I want to speak out about my feelings. Chance would be a fine thing! I am working with C next week on how to channel some of this rage in a way that will work for me ... bring it on! I am like a fizzy bottle ready to explode.
I trust that you will be OK, like us all. What doesn't kill us is supposed to make us stronger and I should be like Ironman with all the sh*t I have had to deal with in my lifetime. I thought that it was plain sailing when I married H but I never knew that the ship would be named the Marie Celeste after 17 years of our voyage ... ha! the irony is not wasted on me there ... seing that it's the tramps name.
You have your faith in God - that must be comforting. It will see you through to better times and I hope that you have others who are here on the earth who will help you too.
God bless.
WAH 43; W 47 M 16; T 17 Cats 15 & 6 Bomb 27/05/09 ow 28/06/09
"It is only on the darkest night that we see the stars"
