Good Morning, well between your post & Stuck's I just had a good cry last night. It is so heartbreaking to see men who truly want to be a good H & father and to see his W ruin everything. This is the case with you and with Stuck. I have been with Stuck around the time he first came on board, and as with you, I have grown to think of him as one of my boys.
I was pretty concerned about him when I read how he was being physically affected. I know you will check in on him and support him b/c both of you are going through the same things and can identify with the "man" issues you deal with.
Hope your day will be good. This is "hump" day and after this afternoon.....it will be a downhill slide till time to be with your kidos.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!