Hope and heartache

[ClingingToHope]

Of course, I have them 4 nights a week, and about 65% of the time, so that helps too!

If everything follows the D path, I'm going to ask for more time. Right now it's one night a week and every other weekend. I see them every school day after school as well because I have a job I can leave for an hour a day to be there when they get off the bus. At 3:40 an after school sitter comes over.

I hope a D is not the end result but I'm preparing myself for it. Right now my W's job is very unflexible and she puts in 65 hours a week so I end up doing a lot of the ferrying around.

But that may change some day. There's a possibility I may get promoted. If I was "at home" I wouldn't even have applied because together we make plenty and at least one of us has to have flexibility.

Now, if I'm offered the job I have to take it. It'll mean the days of leaving at 4:30 p.m. when I want to take D7 to dance class will either be over or curtailed quite a bit, but I have to face reality. I need to make more money and doing it in my career and not working every other weekend is a better way to do it.

It also would create a curious 180. I've been sacrificing my career for W's -- and the family's needs -- since 2004 even though I have the greater career potential. W is limited because she doesn't have a college degree. Now, she'd either have to step up and figure out a way to be able to be more available to the girls or she'll have to cut back their activities.