it is a lot easier not looking for meaning, is it normal to get frustrated and go what the hell is happening, i mean shoot 4 months ago we were a family, am I the only one that you see something and it reminds you of a better time and you get hit like a ton bricks going what the????I've read and I am practicing and I'm detached and then out of flipping no where comes this feeling of just I can't even describe it and that's when I do something stupid,I'm a better self, but man I miss how it was bad!
