I keep writing big long rants about my W and how hard it will be to forgive. I get to the end and realize I've talked myself back into DBing and waiting for the MLC/WAW stranger to transform back into the person who loves me.

I went through the same thing. She tried and when I wouldn't listen, she tried to go on with her life. She was patient, still loved me and tried to be supportive. Once again, I have to realize that my W is (was/will hopefully be again) smarter than I.

Forgiving is going to be one of the biggest challenges, right behind making it out alive.

~Mark

Me: 38
W: 34
Together: 9yrs
1st M: may '03
1st D: april '08
1st bomb: june '08
remarried: oct '08
2nd bomb: aug '09 --(W asked for D one week into 3 mo. trial separation which was meant to save our M)