How do I keep loving and doing what I have to do when my W gets to go have fun all the time (w/ 2 kids in the house) while I'm suffering? She's made this choice and apparently is happy as a clam while I'm miserable? How do other people do it? I don't know.

I know I'm whining a lot but I'm struggling day to day. Lots of self-help books, no job, no money. I wouldn't have done this to her. Not this way. I get all the principles but sometimes they aren't much help.

Last edited by M A Holm; 09/29/09 10:03 PM.
~Mark

Me: 38
W: 34
Together: 9yrs
1st M: may '03
1st D: april '08
1st bomb: june '08
remarried: oct '08
2nd bomb: aug '09 --(W asked for D one week into 3 mo. trial separation which was meant to save our M)