trying hard to figure things out

[twistfigure]

So I did the exact wrong thing- I made him talk about us and he has assured me to do what I need to do for "me" as at this moment he does not see that "we" will ever be an "us" again. I know I should not have asked him for any kind of answers on us but I needed to know there was no hope before I invested in a home. I know you can't believe everything your H says at this point but boy it cut me like a knife. It what I needed to hear but that doesn't mean it didn't kill me when he said it. At least now I have some closure and can move forward and really focus on me.