Old "newbie" needs help FAST!!! Please respond!!

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Thanks Etrain. Not sure when this all started for you, but it has been 5 months for me. You will hear that isn't all that much time in a 15 year marriage. But, you can only take so much Limbo before you crave a path. It is odd, but you somehow need to keep moving forward. The changes I made are permanent. She sees it and knows it. So, I guess I have come to the crossroads. I can't "hope" my way out of this anymore. I believe that I will at least get closure for now which will help me finally detach. I don't think you can until you come to the conclusion in your head that it is finally over. Then maybe you get some peace. Hell, I broke down yesterday in tears. First time in about a month. Sometimes the gravity of the situation hits. You let it out and you are able to move forward the next day.

My Wife cancelled MC after 3 sessions. She has a very Italian family that all thinks she is crazy. Nothing has made her waver in her convictions.

Good luck on the next few months. This road is the hardest one you or I will ever travel. I know that I am in the middle in middle of this fight. The first few months are pure hell. Find some good friends that don't mind hearing you talk about it. Besides this site, my 3 sons, it is the only thing I found that gives me peace.