Newcomer, want to keep my hope alive!

[iwantittowork]

I have not posted in a while, as I have not really been getting anywhere new, but I had a bad night with nightmares about W and got little sleep..

Spent last few days focusing on me, and d8, and been out and about for myself.

I have changed my hair and shaved a goatee I had for 14 years, but those were for me, and about me, trying to shake myself up a bit.

I have barely talked with W in the past 7 days, but that is what she wants, if I come around, she goes into a different room. I have not said or done anything when she does.

On weekends, she gets ready, dressed up and splits in the morning and she is not around all day. I don't say or do anything about that, just mind my own business and take time with my d8.

Thursday is mediation day, and I am having a hard time not focusing on that coming up, but work has been really busy as well, although my fuse is shorter at work lately, and I am trying to manage that, as I know the added stress of work/life is wearing on my nerves.

This AM I stayed late to see d8 before I split for work, and W was upbeat and chuckling about couple of things, so I only stayed for 5 mins of light conversation, and not trying to project why she is so happy...