Still in the tunnel with hubby

[kjensen]

Journaling:

H seems more up and down lately. We had our bi-weekly talk last night and H says he hates them. he says I cry each time(what canI say, I'm an emotional being).. He realizes he doesn't active listen very well. Last night was basically him venting about two recent incidences and I listened and recapped...No closeness last night, so maybe these talks do more harm than help, at least right now. I do believe that if we both learn to be better active (non-mind-reading)listeners and not just reactive listeners, things will improve...

So H is having lunch with a highschool, female friend he has gotten re-aquainted with on Facebook. I have to say, its slightly threatening to me..but he does need more friends. This friend is divorced with highschool-age boys and lives pretty far south of us..So we'll see what mood he comes home in..He did take pictures of me and the girls to share with her. he said he'd tell me about their lunch...

So here is where I am. Once the marching band thing settles down with D13(lots of driving her to and fro), I'm thinking of finding a cooking class to take(with or without hubby) and try to GAL more.

Our marriage counselor asked us in our first meeting, what number on a scale of 1 to 10, represented how we felt our chances were to stay married and what number represented the effort we felt we could put into the marriage. H said 5 for both and I said 8. I really feel if asked right now, I'd say 2 to the first question and 5 for the second. Kind of sad.