WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[sandi2]

You don't know how good it is to hear when a few things in y our day is going better! It's odd how we learn to apprectiate that, isn't it?

I do care about you and the boys, and I suppose that is why I tend to discuss more than just the M situation b/c it is about your "life". I would like to think that is what we are here for.....about each other's life.....whatever that includes.

Oh.....talk about bringing a tear....you know how to lay it on!

I had promised each of my boys on the day they were born I would always be there for them and love them forever. I still plan on keeping that promise

The thing is, I know that is not fake and you're not trying to impress anyone. It is truly how you feel. You may have started out in life at a disadvantage of not having a father at home, but in the long run of things.....it had a big part (I believe) in making you the great dad you are with your boys. You know what you missed as a child and that is why you are so determined to try to make sure your boys have that. I'm sure it adds to your pain of knowing that there is a possiblity their parents won't get back together....b/c you experienced that when you were growing up. One thing about it, I don't believe there is anything that would or could take you away from those kids...and in return, they will not cut you out of their life when they grow up. I believe it works that way. When we keep them close when they are little and they know they are important to us b/c of the "time" we give them.....then when we are old and they are adults and we are wanting and needing their time for us, they will be there if at all possible.

I may not have had that much in material things, but I was certainly rich with a loving family and I don't believe anything in life is more important. That is why it breaks my heart to see young families pursue things that are not important while their children are so young. My mom always told me that my kids would be grown before I knew it and to appreciate them while they were small. Man, was she so right! I turned around one day and they were grown and had children of their own. Okay.....so now I'm bawling (lol), but we share something here that is important. I'm glad to know there are men/fathers still around like you.....and so glad I had the privledge of meeting you.