Magnificent

[mishka422]

I don't know what would help. I just know that getting this out feels good. The twisted part of my brain says.....send it to him! Let him have it! The rational part of my brain knows that isn't going to do any good and would only hurt our tenuous co-parenting R.

I'll figure this out. Somehow.

My poor little toe is finally healing so I should be able to get back to my walking, eliptical routine. I'll admit that while not being able to exercise I've also slacked off on my diet. I put on a pair of pants this morning that I haven't worn since last winter and they fit, but not very well. Exercise definitely helps my PMA.

Diet doesn't help my PMA! It makes me testy and ticked off that I can't have my favorite foods anymore. Even though I know how unhealthy the stuff I love is, I still crave it!

This morning I left my house determined not to let anything derail me from my diet for the next few weeks. That is going to be tough. My office is infamous for the amount of food we eat in a week. Everyone seems to feel it's their duty to fill us up on junk. For example, I'm sitting here staring at a HUGE black forest cake that our owner's husband brought in. It was left over from his poker night last night at their house. He does this at least once every other week! Our receptionist brought in lunch and dessert for the office also. She is the caterer for her church and made FAR too much so brought the rest to us. I don't even know what it is, but I can guarantee it's fattening and decadent!

I refuse to leave my desk just so I'm not tempted. I have to pick up mom from dialysis so I will eat my Lean Cuisine and a salad at home, thank you very much.

Crazy afternoon today too. C appt, then a scheduled phone call with my BFF (we have to schedule them or we never connect), then bible study, then a darned mandatory meeting at the supermarket I work at tonight at 10pm! UGH! What a day!