Trying to save my M. W not really trying though.

[etrain]

Thanks Day by Day.
I'm trying to remain positive & keep from falling apart...but it's not easy. Our M is completely one-sided right now and all my W says is that her needs have changed & she's not in love w/ me anymore.
Hearing that was harder than anything I've gone through in my entire life. It's like she's turned into a completely different person & has a wall around her that can't be broken through. She's just so distant.
Meanwhile, I feel like a lost puppydog. I'm almost 40 & the thought of starting over scares the hell out of me. And I break down every time I think of only seeing my son 1/2 the time.