That realization that I am for now the head of the household was scary for me at first, but I have been doing fine with it. Who knew I was capable of it? That is something that I am actually very proud of. I am way stronger than I ever thought I was, and am learning to do things I never thought I would (i.e. little repairs around the house, getting ready to possibly tackle some bigger ones).
Deep down I still wish he was still the one taking care of all of us, but maybe he will be again. In the meantime, I am doing what I can.
I am getting my focus back. Things are not so bad. I can do this!
