You said you are repressing your feelings. You can't do that exactly. Yes in the situation, at the moment, but then, you have to deal with them. You have to understand them, feel them, and let them go, or one of these days you will erupt like a volcano. (People talk about expoding but I always see a volcano).
As for being in the house, yes it would be easier to monitor the kids, but beyond that...
I don't think I would push on that one at all. This is so hard to watch every minute of every day. It is.
As for D, my H has never ever said the word. Oh he has hinted at it, said other words that indicate that is what he is thinking but he has never ever said the word. Does it mean anything? I'm still here aren't I?
If she filed you will know soon enough.
Have you ever watched Suite Life of Zach and Codey? On Disney?
There is an episode, the kids are in band class, and Codey wants to pass a message to his girlfriend. "I want you back". Well by the time it got through all of the kids to the girlfriend, she was told "Codey thinks you look like a yak" or something to that effect. But it was very truthful about message passing and interpretation.
So just put the rumor aside until it is no longer a rumor. And don't try to find out in the meantime either.
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
