UPSIDE DOWN - still struggling, trying to detach

[Eskimo Nell]

Oh I hear you Oz but it's not quite that easy. How do I show H that I am fun when a) I really can't find anything right now to find fun in b) have no outlet in which to find fun and c) even if I managed a+b, how do I show that to H who is keeping as far away from me as he can muster?

I am so confused and torn now between maintaining nc, which goes against H's LL, and validating him, which is his LL?

I'm really angry with him too - he said that he would answer my emails over the weekend and here we are, Tuesday evening, with nothing. Of course, we know where he has been so let's see if there's a response by the time I get back from C this evening - I doubt it. I'm still waiting on booking a day off for the house tribunal but don't want to if he's going to say that he can't make it.

Gotta dash - don't want to be late for C!! Talk later ...