Thanks for your responses. I spent some time today ruminating. I feel much better now.
Cat, that unpredictability is awful. But it is what it is I guess.
Mach, I think you were absolutely right - I know that the road ahead is still so long, the more I have learned about MLC. I kinda laugh now thinking about some things that looked like "baby steps" 2-3 months ago and thought maybe things were looking up and yet here we are. Wherever that is. I do find it harder to keep my expectations at 0 when the good stuff happens.
MJ, the loneliness can be exhausting. I do miss the H that would be the one to say everything would be okay and would do his best to make sure it was. Maybe someday again . . .
I am spending too much time focusing on him lately. I am trying to think of something great to do for me this week. Hmmmmm.
