"I believe we are supposed to have a new relationship, with all the right motives, feelings, emotions, purposes, and behaviors in place and understood."
So.. now you have a goal.
"I just wish I could "know" that that is what is going on."
Don't trust your instinct. "Knowing" will not change things to the extent you think it will. It will just make you lazy... again.
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
