It's so hard to just stop loving and caring. I can't stop that tiny slice of hope. I don't believe it will happen, I don't count on it - but I still hope.
I know, everyone in the world has told me and is telling me - I'm beautiful, I'm intelligent, I deserve more and I deserve better.
The heart wants what the heart wants and it's such a struggle. I go through moments of being numb or almost ok and then suddenly, like right now I am crying so hard it's hard to breath.
Thank you MsInvisible for being here. I really appreciate it. I can't keep talking about this to my mom - she worries about me so much as it is.
Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.
