How did I get here?

[wanttobebetter]

MLC is right. She is so messed up with conflict within herself. She can't find herself she said and is willing to risk it all. She had a lease on one apt then changed it yesterday to another. She can't even figure out where to live!!!!

I decorated the house yesterday with the kids. She made mention of it today saying there were years where she couldn't get me into the mood to do it now I do it on my own. I realize that my GAL's are working, but it makes me realize I should have been doing that all along.

The only thing that sucks on this new place is she will have to sign a year lease. It is closer and would be more convenient but there is no chance I can be separated for that long and have much hope of working things out.

Honestly, I know this is tougher on her than it is me...