Sounds like there were some positives at least for you from spiritual standpoint. That is the thing the scares the hell out of me. We have talked a great deal about how she got here. I am in the same boat as you. She doesn't love me, hasn't for a long time. I have made the changes, yet she tells me her feelings won't come back. Not sure that this weekend will do much other than get her to tell me how bad of a husband I have been...

If her feelings are gone, there is not much more than I can do. I can't sit in this house with her and my sons and act happy for another 6 months...I am like you-fed up with everything. You just want to be happy again. The last 5 months have been horrible...

Remarried 6 mo
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