Glad you found this web site. It has been a great place for support and understanding. We are not alone.
Thanks for sharing. Great job standing up and being dad for your kids! 50/50 is what I have also. I live by - "what is best for my kids is best for me".
Not sure what books you have read, but I have my favorites listed in the first post of my thread....
Keep up the good work for your kids. You are their role model.
"What is best for my kids is best for me" Amor Fati Link to quotes: https://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2879712