So we have been ML alot lately and H said last night we are married W so I do not understand how you can walk around this house and not talk to me about what is going on. He was very drunk keep in mind. His actions are not matching his words, we ML today and last night and slept on the floor together. It is so strange. I just do not get it and I do not get his moods. We went to the concert together. I had so much fun! He said last night to me that the concert was not fun at all and I said I am sorry you did not have fun because I had a blast. He questioned my changes and my upbeat moods. I told him I do not want to talk about R and he said then just ignore what is going on and am I supposed to believe you made a complete 180..10 years of this and this is how you are now. He brings up the past constantly and I told him I am not going to live in the past and he said how can you not? I said I cannot change the way I used to be, I said I am happy right now. I said you are responsible for your own happiness and I am responsible for mine. I just am so confused. He did not mention Divorce once but then again I would not give him an opportunity. I think he is depressed or having a MLC..Who knows??? but I told him that I am prepared to live without him if I have to. I said right now I support you and I am here for you but I am not going to walk around being unhappy all the time. He said I am being fake..continues to tell me that..only this time..this time I am finally becoming who I was..10 years ago. I dont think he loves me anymore. I really dont.
