WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[confusedinpa]

It was a rainy Sunday so we wound up doing our housecleaning today. The boys were thrilled (if you believed that, I got a bridge to sell ya).

Anyway, we did the vaccuming, dusting and folded the laundry in an hour - not bad for 3 boys :-)

Unfortunately, during one of the boys' toy car got crushed during the mad cleaning session. My 3 year old was bumming but he didn't throw a fit like I was afraid he would. So when we went out to grab some lunch, we stopped at the store and I let them each pick out a toy.

Of course, my 3 year old didn't want to take his nap as he wanted to play with his new toy. I let him play for about 45 minutes before I put him down for his nap. Then my 7 year old and I played video games again - more one on one bonding time :-)

When my 3 year old woke up from his nap, the three of us played and I actually got a chance to watch a football game (first one on a Sunday this year). Unfortunately, it reminded me that I forgot to put in my football picks :-( I was in second place in the pool so this takes me out of the running for the season. Now I just gotta hope to win a week to break even :-S

We made dinner together and when she showed up to pick up the boys, I did the usual of giving her the bags and walked out with the boys. She asked to see my shingles, but I told her it was painful to untuck my shirt to show her. I did joke with her that I would imagine it would be awkward if I started to take off my pants to do so in front of her - she actually blushed and seemed a little flustered. I also gave her a perscription and asked her to get it filled through the mail order system like she used to (much cheaper). She said she would.

She called me as I was just leaving for New York. She asked me some tactical questions, but then started chit chatting. I was pressed for time while she chit chat as I was suppose to call one of my friends. After I was about about 10 minutes late to call, I told her that it was hard to hear her on my cell so perhaps we can talk more tomorrow nite. She said ok, I'm sure she thought something was odd as the few other times she would call, I would let her talk for about an hour.

I was annoyed when she told me my 7 year old didn't have school on Monday so she was staying home with him. Not that I could have taken off, but she should have told me. Of course I have a copy of his school schedule, but I expected her to tell/remind me of these things like she had in the past. Guess I need to get them onto my calendar.

She did wind up sending me a bunch of pictures and text of just light "fun" things. I just thanked her and left it at that.

So our anniversary is 2 weeks away. I know I will do something with my friends and my boys that day, not exactly how I would have expected to spend our 10th anniversary. She did say the boys have dentist appointments in the morning (right after her's). Really not sure why she scheduled it that way, nor what she will decide to do that day, but I really don't care. I've extended out the olive branch to de-escalate the WW III that was brewing. So that was successful, I think. But she hasn't made any moves, other than staying the course she had put us on.

Right now, I'm oddly good. I really believe that with or without her, the boys and I will be fine. If I can get primary custody, wherever I am, even the better. All I know, at the end of the day, I can look my boys in the eye and myself that I fought like heck to save the marriage - right up to the bitter end.... I'm not saying this to say the last battle has been fought, but more that I've waged an honorable war. If she isn't going to engage, that's her choice.... And if she does, I'll have to decide if I want to battle again....