I am with you AaK - I have suspended my life for roughly 3 years watching WAW waffle back and forth, even after starting an A.
Time does heal all wounds, or so I thought. My amazing D9 has fiercely supported her mother, even supporting her affair "I want Mommy to be happy." Then, out of the blue last week, she said, "I wish Mommy wasn't dating. OM has ruined everything. Why do we have to do divorce? I just want everything back."
I was flabbergasted. What do you say to something like that?
I have been doing great emotionally - kids and I have been loving life, and then this!
Not much help, I know, but I can empathize.
I say keep moving forward, and don't stop. If you are going to truly and legitimately reconcile, it'll happen regardless where you are.