MW, I, too, have had the same questions. Most times I think that my h is not in a MLC.
And Mach is going easier on you when you ask that question than he did on me. Just preparing you - LOL!
In the end I realized MLC or not, I will stand until I cant anymore. I will stand because I love him, because I made a promise before God, because I know no other way right now.
Do I believe there is such a thing as MLC? Absolutely. Does it matter if my h is in one? Not anymore.
My decision is the same.
About the sleeping thing. Dont let that go too long. I know firsthand the havoc it could wreak. Could be depression, anxiety.
When we are going through all of this, we are so tightly wound and waiting for the other shoe to drop and we are trying so hard to process and keep it together that it affects us physically, too.
So, let your doctor know you arent sleeping. Find ways to relax 30 minutes before bedtime. Try to release everything from you mind before you get into bed. Make sure there isnt a tv on and that the room is dark.
Hang in there, Sweetie. This is all part of the journey. You are doing really well.
