Well, I have decided to go an see my solicitor about starting the divorce process. I will be suing for adultery. It is strange, I feel like I finally have 'nothing left to give' my very own stbxh's words two years ago.
I am ok with my decision. I do not want him as part of my life anymore. I do not want to be married to someone who could/ can treat me this way. I deserve so much better and one day better will come along. Perhaps it has already in the form of travels and London life.
I feel happy that I have come to this decision on my own, when the time is right for me. Not because there is anyone else in the picture, not because I have felt pressure from friends or family but because it is right for me. However, I am sad that my marriage has ended. I only ever dreamed that I would get married once and I can honestly say that the man I married was the man of my dreams. Circumstances either changed him or brought out a side that had been hidden. In that way, I have had a lucky escape.
So, the next few months will be hard but then... bring on the future!
