I'll keep going. It's the only way. Huge explosions this weekend - H is upset that someone hit his car and lied to the insurance that he wasn't involved. H has been obsessing and has been taking out a huge amount of anger on me and S.
I lost my temper at him - part of my 180's I'm not supposed to do - I just snapped.
We kinda sorta talked it out. I keep wondering if I really want to keep this marriage - and the answer is still yes, even with all the heartache. So, back to the drawing board.
H went to his apt tonight after putting S to bed - but I felt good that he kept his commitment to put S to bed. I did my 180 - the old me would have tried to beg him to stay and "talk" about what happened this weekend between us.
I just let him go and said, just go do what you need to do for yourself. I appologized and so did he. That's the best I'm gonna get, and I'm glad I got it.
