It's too hard sometimes

[TooLateForMe]

I'm reading a great book recommended to me by Coach - "Learned Optimism" by Martin Seligman. I'm a recovering pessimist myself. Great book.

I'll check it out. I'm not giving in. I plan on changing and growing. The hope hurts. I won't give up on my W. Not saying that at all. She's very serious about her own changes and D is one of them. I won't just hand it to her. I don't want it and I believe it's wrong (not morally, just that we have a chance at happiness together).

I plan to get my financial and social act together and start participating in life. I plan on growing the hell up. She will have to file her own divorce and when or if I go to court I will ask for counseling. If I have to get a lawyer then I will (not much in assets between us). I plan on remaining on this site, getting help and hopefully giving it.

So, those are my plans. Other stuff will come up and I will adapt. In the mean time, I can't keep pretending hope is right around the corner. She won't change her mind tomorrow so I have to keep going.

Thanks all for the encouragement. It does help.