Showed kids where I was staying,caught them up on fun stuff I'm doing,showed them I can play ping pong and play guitar,have fun,etc.I DIDN'T SMELL LIKE SMOKE.
Took them to mall,D wanted a belt,S's XBOX has been broken for a month,finally gave in and bought him one,he was at the point of tears about not having his beloved XBOX.D insisted on picking out cologne for me so I could pick up the girls.We loaded up in the truck and Both at same time,I had to turn away so they wouldn't see my tear. "Dad we know you're not buying our LOVE."
D said this I mean out of the blue hey dad mom has NOT said the word divorce,she said she was debating on having you stay here,she just didn't want to leave.I didn't get too excited,I didn't mention the email we all saw,last week.
Kids asked for more of their fav treats to be dropped off,they loved them,they did say mom thought it was wierd to drop off at the neighbor,I said guys it was pretty awkward,but I'm not chancing what is and isn't gonna tick off your mother.Guys lets settle on wierd,cause all that matters is you liked the treats,they both said can you do that again?They said they ate out every day last wk.
They kept referring to my weight loss,so did neighbors,they hadn't seen my in a couple mos.Said yeah I lost,but I'm gaining it back.Lost 40 lbs.I swear I wasn't around very long and I didn't linger.
I didn't once say one bad thing bout their mom and didn't ask anything about her.When ever they asked how I felt,I just said you guys know how I feel,I love ur mom.But regardless of what happens,we're all going to be fine and I'm doing great.
There was only once I didn't have a smile on my face.
My DB homework was the letter to kids asking for forgiveness. D told me she hung my letter on her wall.
I did screw up twice,one in front of kids when dropping off. Wife and the neighbor the one that is too close were out front doing something.D saw my face change and she said Dad there's nothing there,I said I know,I just know if roles were reversed your mom would be pretty upset.
Second thing,after dropping off kids,bought a motorcycle I saw while leaving the neighborhood,I took it as a sign, it was exactly what I'd been looking for and loaded it in bed of truck,son calls balling,the "red ring of death" is on the new XBOX,needless to say I came to the house with motorcycle in bed of truck,wife and kids saw it,so did neighbors all but wife excited,it's a $375 piece of junk,doesn't even run,anyway the compulsive side of me got me.And hey I fixed the ring of death after the knight neighbor couldn't,funny I didn't get a call sooner from S.
I played it off motor cycle this way and D helped it was funny,Dad did you have another ADD moment,I said yes,walked up to wifes car said Hey I do like it,ins agent's going to email you tomorrow do you know what the VIN is?She said it was Friday I didn't call him,I know she had no idea what I was talking about. She responded with so you called the agent in a tone and I said yes,I needed to change the policy on the Suzuki.
Funny thing she didn't once get off her butt or move,planted like a rock,that was funny.I mean both times I was at the house this afternoon,she was same place and not going to move.
High fived all the neighbor kids that surrounded me,because they do,said goodbye and met D at the park around the corner and she and I hung out,picked up her friends, I did ask her and she did text her mom as to what we were doing, we were texted back "that's fine" and she was shocked that I skate board w/ some of her friends. Just said Kid there's a lot u guys don't know 'bout me,but I'm not working like I was before,I've got time to thrive.
Then tonite, S calls out of blue and we just sat on either end of the line,he had me on spkr,so I'm sure wife was around,so we recapped our day,wasn't that fun,blah,blah,and caught him up on all the fun stuff I've been doing and plans for next wkend.Did he want me to take or pick up from practice ask mom let me know.
BOTH KIDS SAID THAT Wife has asked if they had talked to me this week??? I text call every day,I just sometimes don't get a response back.
It's odd I don't ask a thing bout her,but she asks them everything bout me,kids said.
That's why I asked if they're watching....
I think I might have made a mistake on a post the other nite about hope. If taken wrong way sorry,but just amazed at the strength shown on that thread.
